Tuesday, January 2, 2018

illusion


dinner is waiting. i can’t eat it. it’s all falling apart. i thought i got all my pieces glued together. glue wasn’t dry, i guess. 

i don’t know what i feel i don’t know how to feel there’s too much to feel there’s too many reasons why. 

i think i thought i was running away from myself again. 
o, that old romantic notion. 

i didn’t make it. i never do. i got here and ran smack into an older version of myself. this is why i never go back. 

am i any better than when i started? how is this not that again? 

i did so much work. 
i did so much work. 
i was becoming a person. i was a person. 


my head’s gone dark again. 

it’s also a tuesday. 


i’m just back where i started. backed into a corner. 

the same corner. i'm done with this corner. i'm bored with this corner. can i face a different wall, please?

something not so covered in blood and snot and sick. 

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