Wednesday, August 11, 2010

i'm tired

of the effort required to exist. lying back on the grass in the sunlight all i feel is the universe pressing, compacting my atoms until i am reduced to negative space. 



7 comments:

Peridot (G+P) said...

I want to curl up with you and the kitty cats and guard you so the bad dreams don't come. You will have a deep, dreamless sleep and awaken to a better day.

Love you Anise. Lots and deeply and truly.

*HUGS* xoxo <3

Anonymous said...

Amen.

Kristal said...

Hope you were able to find some sleep. I've been looking for the same. Redirect the Sandman to me once appropriate manners dictate so.

Anonymous said...

me too.
this is me right now too.

io said...

oh i am so glad to come on here and find two new posts from you. however short. i was worried. i still am. you always find amazing pictures. i love this one, it looks like you. is it? i have missed your words this past week. please write some more. are you coping? even if it’s crap and you must exist and take up space, is there any chance that you are even remotely okay?
much love, io

miss said...

I feel like this all the time. It's nice to experience.

vanilla finnegan said...

I'm so sorry anise :(
I know it hurts but a dreamless sleep can't fix you. The pain is the only way out.
I am so tired and so lazy as well and the thing is I have it WAY easier than you do and yet there you are; still existing.
You need to feel strong.
You need to feel powerful.

Because you really, truly are.

Hang in there lovely anise.
Careful with the drugs.
Hiding under the covers will not make the monster in your closet go away.

I love you!

xoxo
vanilla finnegan