ineptitude

trying to scotch tape the brain together today. tape is not strong enough. brain cleaves in pieces and i cannot see or drive or walk. left work early and it's not the kind of work you can do that with. 

getting seriously scared this isn't side effects but an actual inability to deal with reality.

you know you can flick ants and they keep on walking wherever they land? would that i were that resilient. i'm not here too much to learn to do that these days, these strange sunny-rainy desert days.